| Karaoke, Fifty, Military, Grace, Patty, Jam, Reminisce, Film. |
[Nov. 14th, 2009|05:28 am] |
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So much has happened since the last time I updated. Let's just start out with last friday, which was the Karaoke party. It, of course, was super duper fun, and I spent a lot of time talking to my auntish person on my Dad's side of the family, Gabe. Not only that, but I got to sing Karaoke, which I absolutely love doing. :-D Of course, none of my "friends" showed up, but that doesn't matter since I had the time of my life. :-)
This party was for my dad. He wanted a Karaoke party instead of a birthday party. My dad's birthday was a few days ago on the eleventh, in which he turned fifty. I think that's so cool to turn fifty. :-) Anyway, we (my family and Mehrdad) went to Smokey Bones that night. The time was filled with great times. I wish I could be more specific, but I'm feeling too lame right now to type up details.
On Thursday I went to the recruiter's office to take the ASVAB. When I got there, there were about three boys taking the ASVAB for the marines and about nine or ten people taking it for the Navy. I was the only guy waiting in front of the Army office. My recruiter wasn't there at 4:00 on Thursday (like we discussed), and the lights were on inside the office so I just waited. In the cold. It was, like, 65 degrees that day! Do you know how cold that is?! Anyway, after about thirty minutes of waiting I decided to call my recruiter. He told me "Oh... sorry, dude. I forgot to call you. I'm on my way to Tampa right now. I have, uh... my boss... his, uh, wife. I have to..." I stopped listening and just drove home.
I'm so unimpressed with this recruiting office for the Army. That was the third time they weren't there when they said they would be. I might as well join the Marines, since they are always there and since they said they would be hiring in November. (I need to act fast, then)!
I wrote a song today about Grace Randolf. Who is Grace Randolf, you ask? Well, she's the closest thing to a celebrity crush that I've ever had. She hosts the show "Beyond the Trailer" on the IndyMogul channel on YouTube. Why did I write it? Because I currently have four unfinished songs, so I figured a quick song about her would boost me to finish the rest. :-p Besides, she's pretty friggin' cute and has a million things in common with me. :-p
So I think I'm starting to accept that Patty doesn't want to be my friend anymore. I mean, she doesn't respond to me at all, she seems to be ignoring me, and she doesn't even try to communicate with me. I liked it better when she told me she'd hang out with me on my birthday and that we'd go to get sundaes the next chance we got, but her ignoring me is just rude. But, hey. I can't make her be my friend if she doesn't want me to. I don't need her love to be happy. :-p (Oh, snap guys. I'm about to break out into a song!)
Baby I am changing the feeling,
the love was amazing,
for you and for me
but we both disagree.
And my heart keeps on breaking
and I can't keep waiting
so I don't need your love,
I don't need your love!
"I Don't Need Your Love"- Impulse
Speaking of Impulse, I don't like how it's going. Anthony's idea of a "band practice" consists of the following: A. Helping him rebuild his dream studio which, in fact, was one major reason I joined; B. Doing "exercises" where we do nothing but listen to The Jonas Brothers and write down which instruments we think we hear like I'm in some kind of elementary school music class; and C. Go to the mall and look for clothes that I didn't want in the first place. What's missing from here? (Hinthint: A jam session). Oh, another fun fact: Anthony doesn't even play any instruments. Ugh.
All I want is to Jam. Nobody wants to Jam with me. It's all I want more than anything in the world. I wish that someone at least had enough cahones to sing with me, but nobody seems to want to. That's why when people invite me to become a member of "their band," I always accept. In fact, I ran into this guy I knew at Seminole and he asked if I played any instruments. I told him I did and gave him the list. He wants to try me out on Bass for his band which *might* be a metal band but I don't know. I'll find out when we jam. I don't even like Metal that much, but I sure do love jamming.
Oh, before I forget, I should list all of the entries that were made private because Valery decided she wanted to report me. These are descriptions of all of the entries that have been made private because of Valery's onslaught against my well being:
-On April 1st, 2007, I posted an entry of myself apologizing to everybody I know. I specifically listed each of their names and told them I'm Sorry. At the end, I made a special announcement that said "And most of all, I'm sorry Valery (last name)." I wrote a sentence saying that we should go back to august before all of the drama.
-Later on that day, I posted an entry because I felt like a complete dick. I felt that I have hurt so many people, and I typed in big letters "I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER." Then I typed that I was talking about Valery (Last Name).
-On April 15th, 2007, I informed readers (in really big font) that I am in love with Valery (Last Name). I went on saying that me and her were like Peas and Carrots.
-On June 12th, 2007, I posted an entry that coined the term "OH MY GOAT!" I started the entry with tons of punctuation marks due to my never fading happiness of that day. I then stated that "I LOVE VALERY (last name)!" I went on describing how amazing she was to me and all of this blahblahblah that I felt at the time. I then typed a secret message to her in my code.
-On July 23rd, 2007 at 3:15am, I posted an entry that simply said "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, VALERY (last name)!" It went on to describe all sorts of "We will never end... we're meant to be" ballsackz.
-On August 3rd, 2007, I posted an entry in the early early morning about how much Valery meant to me. Words flew from my heart, into my fingers, and onto the screen. Valery commented with "Aw. :D I'm speechless."
-On May 22nd, 2008, I posted an entry that stated that I'm not going to let Valery go. I'm going to try my ballsiest to get her back. It was an entry of my undying love and motivation to have her back with me.
-On February 22nd, 2009 (two days after my grandpa died), I was in my parent's room talking about what is going to happen for my Grandpa's funeral, and I returned to the computer with an IM window from Valery's screen name open. The IMs went as follows:
(valery) (11:02:43 PM): mmm you just love all your girlfriends dont ya?
(valery) (11:03:47 PM): i didnt love you anyway :]
(valery) (11:03:49 PM): night!
(valery) signed off at 11:07:09 PM.
(valery) is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.
I went on in the entry to reinform everyone that I have not texted her, messaged her, IMed her, mentioned her in LJ, or anything for a while, and she just decided to send me this IM for what seemed to be no reason at all. I then asked her "Valery (lasat name), Why must you do everything in your power to try to make my life worse? I've never done anything horrible to you at all. Why are you out to get me?" She never answered.
I posted those in this entry mainly so that I could fill in the gaps later on in life when I reminisce on my life years from now. Obviously, there was no need for her to throw a hissy fit and report me for most of those entries, but whatever. Me posting these descriptions was not in any way intended to start balls but strictly for reminiscing and personal historical reasons.
I've been going to Fastbreaks a lot more lately, hanging out with Joe some more, hanging out more and more with Gazzies, pwning every assignment in school, writing more and more songs, almost done hooking up my studio, and I've been living my life amazingly. If only I could fall asleep at night, then my life would be purrrfekt. :-D But my life is amazing right now, and there's no reason to complain. :-)
Oh, and I have a 5-8 minute film assignment due in four weeks.
The assignment is to make any type of short film I want.
Any ideas for a plot?
My name is Andrew X. Hunter,
and I am in love with my life,
and I'm going to get everything I want out of it.
:-D
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|02:54 pm] |
I'm in film right now. We aren't really doing anything today, so I'm just going to post this entry. It'll be another standard semi-long entry that nobody will comment on and only people that don't like me will read... but oh well. :-p
My birthday was pretty cool. I slept until, like, two in the afternoon, then Mehrdad took me and Chelsea to Kobe's. My sister got upset because when the waitress asked what we wanted to drink, I said "Coka-Corra." I thought it was pretty funny. They kept loading us with more and more food. SO MUCH FOOD. Mehrdad was the only one man enough to actually finish his plate. I swear, I have no idea why that dude is so skinny...
When we got home, my parents wanted me to hand out candy in my awesome Repo costume. Some cute little kids were freaked out by it... And I could see why. I would hate to see someone walking around in that thing at night.
This year my dad came up with a three-tiered approach to handing out candy. Tier one: Cute little kids in a costume that walk from door to door with their parents. They get the good candy. Tier two: Kids who's parents drive them from door to door. They get mediocre candy. Tier Three: Punk teenagers or kids without costumes. They got bullion cubes, old coffee creamer, or old McDonald's sugar packets. It was pretty great when I got to crush some punk kid's dreams by giving him a old coffee creamer packet. It was awesome pwning some punks. :-D
After an hour or so of that, my cousin's on m mom's side of the family came over to celebrate our birthday. It was great seeing them. It's been a while since we've seen them. I mean, I see Jeremy all the time in class, but that was about it.
Me, Mehr, Jeremy, and Benjamin started playing Halo. Jeremy and Benjamin were on a team and Me and Mehr were on a team. Our team was unstoppable. We pwnt completely, even though Jeremy and Benjamin were screening and strategizing together. :-p
Well, I gotta output my video.
:-p
I'll update more later.
-AXH- |
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| Happy Birthday to Me |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|03:57 am] |
I started out my day finishing off my costume. I'll have to wear it again tomorrow and post some pictures online... because people say it was an amazing costume ("Nathan" from Repo). :-p I cleaned all day, and I was networking with a million different people trying to get as many people as I can to come to the costume party. Like, I cleaned more than I cleaned for a while. Mopping floors (with elite precision), cleaning off the stove, washing the dogs for longer than the five minutes it takes to wash them, you name it. We even started decorating like crazy, moving fake cobwebs over our furniture, whipping out the fresh halloween candy, pizza rolls in the oven, lighting our jack o lanterns, everything.
My parents were prepared to have fun. My brothers were prepared for an epic party. Me and my sister were ready for the intertwining of my world and her world. My friends and her friends together... how weird. We were ready to collide those worlds. A whole day of preparation lead up to this moment. Stress levels rose. It was 6:30. The party was going to start at 7:00. 6:45. 6:50. 6:55. And, here it was... 7:00!
Nobody was there.
I figured that maybe everybody wanted to show up fashionably late. I mean, afterall, I had about four of my friends telling me that they would make it, and Chelsea (Can Can Dancer) had about 10 friends telling her they would make it. 7:05. 7:10. Nobody. 7:15. 7:20. 7:25. Still nobody.
Finally, at around 7:30, K-Skillet (Youth Director) showed up. We quickly allowed her in, welcomed her, got her a drink, gave her foods, Danny (Grim Reaper, or something) offered to play pool, and it was alright. It was kind of the pink elephant in the room that she was the only person, though. Like, my dad even told me "Andrew, this is a pretty lame party."
Edna (Doctor) showed up at around 7:45. She stayed for a bit and then she left around 8:30, which was around the same time that K-Skillet left. Edna was going to come back later, she just needed to give medicine to her kids. We were all just sitting there for the bulk of that time. It really was a lame party. I was glad Edna and K-Skillet showed up, or else I would've felt like I spent a lot of time making my repo costume for nothing.
We chilled. My family did. We sat down, and the failure of a party was on all of our minds. Me and Chelsea were having tossing this theme around: Are we really those people that others avoid? Are we really those people that others avoid? This conversation went on for a while.
8:45. 9:00. 9:15. Nobody.
And the party was scheduled to end at 10:00.
At 9:30, Juliana (Professional Barbie) and Glen(n?) (Secret Agent) showed up. They livened the atmosphere a little bit and we even started playing pool with them. We still kind of felt like the party was a flop, but it still had a little bit more time. In fact, it didn't need that much more time...
At around 9:45, Josh (Dionysus) showed up in his toga. He quickly started talking to everyone and becoming social. Edna came back as well. In fact, by 10:00, we had Mehrdad (Referee), Ray (Jack Skellington), Mike (Zombie?), Ginger (Coraline), and Steve (Surgeon) there as well. The party had begun.
We were playing pool, eating food, playing more pool, people were outside smoking cigarettes, chatting it up in our costumes, we included Danny as well, everybody was talking to everybody and getting to know everybody, even Steve (who just moved here a few months ago) was being super duper social. What a great time.
When Midnight struck, I was playing nine ball with Danny. I didn't even notice it. But everybody who was inside was racing to me to be the first one to say Happy Birthday. And then we all raced outside to be the first one to say Happy Birthday to my sister. Steve stopped the commotion, called me and chelsea to him, and he WHIPPED OUT A MOTHAFUZZIN' VIOLIN and played Happy Birthday to us. :-D
The party lasted until about 2:00. Steve and Mehrdad were the only ones left at the end, and we were on the back porch. Steve was smoking and the three of us were talking about video games, deep conversation, and just about everything else that three guys would talk about. Chelsea gave me a birthday present that she bought a few weeks ago... a shirt that says "UPDOG" on it. :-D I'm going to wear it to school on Monday. <3
We called it a night, Steve drove home, and I drove Mehrdad home. Me and him talked about starting a production company. Mehrdrew or something. I don't know. But that would be hella awesome. :-D
And all of those people who told me they would come, all of the people that are deemed as "my friends" are considered LAME for all of eternity. But all of the Gazzies that came... they really are great people and are hella reliable. :-) I have to say... each time they pull through like this I consider them less of "Chelsea's Friends" and more of "Our Friends." They are amazing people and I should hang out with them more. I guess you can say that these gazzies are my only reliable friends? ... Yes. I do feel safe saying that. These Gazzies are the most reliable, loyal, diverse, and amazing people I know. :-D
My name is Andrew X. Hunter,
I am 19 years old,
and I am absolutely loving life
even if my bestest friends spawned from being my sister's friends.
:-D
-AXH-
SOMETHING I WANTED TO SAY BUT FORGOT UNTIL AFTER I POSTED THIS, AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANYWHERE TO INSERT IT:
So many times this week I would invite people and they would say "That sounds fun... who all is going to be there?" And every time another person asked it (and so many people asked that), I felt like they didn't want to come to see me. I don't know... but they didn't end up showing up because I wouldn't tell them who was going to be here. I guess me throwing a party to chill with who I consider my friends isn't good enough for them. Those Gazzies just act on impulse and will come to your party if invited. You know, it's something that friends do. That being said, I know who my true friends are, and I don't have any problem saying that I love these Gazzies. :-D |
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| Skeleton Josh and Astronomer Kamy |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|02:20 am] |
Today was a great day, but a super weird one. It started out with me taking my siblings to school because I was supposed to give Sam-a-Lam a ride anyway. So it started out awesome right off the bat; the more time I spend with her the better. I loves my Sam-a-Lam. <3
Got to school, walked her to class, then I think I chilled at the gazebo. I can't really remember too much, but I must have chilled there. I always do. Went to History, then I chilled with Christa for a bit. After that, I gave Sam a ride home then went to Film class. The Promo is almost done, and it's due next Monday. :-)
After that, me, Llama, and Josh went searching for a costume for Josh. I forgot what he ended up picking. :-( He really wanted to be either a skeleton or a toga wearing dude, though. We went to burger king as well, and I dropped him off and I had a package at home.
It was my hella cheap trench coat. :-) I am nearly complete with my costume... Pics are coming after Saturday (or maybe even on Saturday). :-p I'm being Nathan from Repo Man, just so you guys know. It's awesome. <3
I got a text from Kamy today asking if I wanted to have a study party. So I went over to her apartment at around 9:00. It was pretty fun, we had a blast beasting through material. And when we were done, I went with her to Gator's to get back her sunglasses. She didn't get hers back, but she got cooler pair anyway. When we got back to her apartment, we started playing some weird Mario-Party-Final-Fantasy-Like game. We played it for a while until she was tired and I had to leave. It was a hellafun night. I'm going to pwnzore that exam tomorrow. >:-)
But today was weird because I had this weird dream a few weeks ago. Josh and Kamy were in it... in fact, it was almost exactly like my day today. I was having Dejevous all day! Like, it was insane! And I was remembering details from the dream a few weeks ago and the dream I had last night, and it was putting a weird feeling in my chest. I don't know why, this whole day was just super duper weird and I don't have that good of a feeling right now. :-\
I have a superbad headache and such. I'm too lazy to do anything, and I keep having a bunch of dejavous. Oh well. Today was still amazing, the people in my life are amazing, I have a costume party on Friday, I have a birthday on Saturday, and I've decided that I have no regrets. :-)
I love life,
this is a weird feeling,
and I absolutely love everybody in my life right now.
:-)
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[Oct. 27th, 2009|03:58 am] |
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Well, I can't sleep.
So here goes another post.
:-p
So far, the only people that I know that are serious about coming to the Costume Party on Friday night are family and gazzies. Who needs anyone else, though? I mean, my friends all either have something else to do or don't really want to chill with me anyway, and the gazzies are awesome. :-D I just hope that the trench coat I ordered can be in before then...
Halloween seems like it'll be just a small deal, just like normal. I say this because everybody who told me that they would chill with me on my own birthday are already bailing. Annalisa says her mom won't let me go chill with her. I think Shayna is mad at me (I should probably ask her about that). And, get this: Patty, who told me months ago that she would clear anything that happened that day because she said she would chill with me (you can even see recent comments to recent entries where she said she would), canceled because of a "cast party" on Halloween. I wouldn't mind this if she didn't state on facebook that she shouldn't "waste that day" anyway and is organizing a caped ultimate game at some park. That really upset me, and she didn't respond to me when I asked her about it. She quickly signed off and hasn't responded to any comments or IMs of mine since. I kind of get the feeling that she is super bothered by me now. I mean, she a week ago she still wanted to go get sundaes and promised me that she would hang out with me on her next day off. Now it seems like she's ignoring me. < /digression >
I hate it when people cancel plans on me.
Especially ones they promised to me months in advance.
But, oh well.
I know I'm not like that.
:-p
The jazz show was absolutely fun. I got the camera closest to the stage, and I even got to go on stage during the show to get some cool shots. I got to dance with Jessy J and got a golden ticket for an eight dollar armpit hair dye at some nearby cosmetic school. Plus I played on this new playground thing they have and climbed a tree. :-) I'm so glad I went, and I can't wait to edit my own promo for it. ... if only I had any idea how I want to start. :-p
I missed another day of first period yesterday... I really am having trouble sleeping. Does anybody have any old family remedies for sleep aid? Hypnotizing doesn't work anymore. I don't think it ever really worked anyway; it was more of a placebo. Hey, even a placebo would work if I knew it wasn't a placebo.
I was hinting to everybody all day yesterday that I wanted to make a jack o lantern. But nobody seemed as excited or up to it as much as I did. I didn't want to carve a pumpkin alone, and nobody wanted to do it with me, so I sat down for a bit in the living room bored (gosh, I'm such a ten year old :-p). Chelsea and Mehrdad finally came from their lair for once in the past week (I guess for oxygen) with Danny and played Sorry with me. THEN we finally carved our Jack O Lanterns! I carved one and so did my sister. I have to say, mine looks better than hers. :-p
Oh! I forgot to mention that Joe is home, and that was one reason why I couldn't get to sleep last night. I was up until six talking to him, got tired, then rolled around in my bed until about 6:30. Joe is going to be home for about ten days or so. He's even going to have a costume for the costume party! How cool is that? Plus he brought his xbox and tv home with him... and do you know what that means? XBOX SYSTEM LINK HALO PARTY! Anybody at all interested?
I've been posting longer and more optimistic entries lately. I guess it's because I'm absolutely loving life right now and I'm a super happy camper. I read somewhere recently that "you get out of life what you put in." Karma. And maybe God put that stress in my life a few weeks ago. I mean, he does weird things like that all the time, right? I guess he throws us these curveballs sometimes so that we can learn to appreciate the great parts in life. I mean, I'm single and not liking it, my friends are ditching out on me on my own birthday, nobody is going to read this entry or comment on it, and I can't find enough energy to try to sleep at night. But I'm still receiving a great life! My brother is home, I feel super duper accepted with the Gazzies, I have somewhat of a goal in life, I'm enlisting into the military, my birthday is in a few days, my dad has a job at Seminole State, I've eaten a lot of candy, and life is just super awesome.
I. Am. Happy.
:-D
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[Oct. 24th, 2009|03:42 am] |
Oh my gosh. My awesome friend, Shayna, has been working on this paper for two days. It's due tomorrow morning. And we were talking on Yahoo about BSing, and we were having a good time. She seemed like she was having a bad time, so I sent her a link to try to make her feel better and give her mind a break (a rick roll). ...The link crashed her computer, and it deleted all of her recent documents. I feel so terrible... ugh. She's such a sweet person and really does work too hard. I don't know how I can make it up to her. :-\ Does anybody know how to recover recent documents?
Anyway, since nobody really is going to end up hanging out with me on my birthday, I convinced my parents to have a costume party the Friday night before Halloween. I know exactly what my costume is going to be... and I'm going to need a lot of spray paint. :-p Chances are, if you're reading this, then you are not invited since you're probably someone who doesn't like me anyway. And for the minority of you who read this and can tolerate me, yeah, you're invited. I can't wait to make this costume...
I'm filming the Casselberry Jazz show tomorrow. And some big-time jazz saxophone latina chick is playing. She's apparently a big deal and anybody who is into jazz worships her. And there are two good things about this show: A. I get to man the camera and 2. I get to edit *my own* promo for this event. Finally I can test out my true editing skill. I really can't wait... I'm super excited. :-p
I might go to Disney on Halloween. I have nothing better to do, and it's free on your birthday. Nothing like going to Disney for free with a bunch of 8 year olds running around dressed up like various characters from their movies... ugh. I should wear my Halloween costume there and just scare little chitlinz. :-p I don't have anybody to go with, though. Besides, Anna already invited me to Merrit Island for the day, Patty said she would hang out with me, and Shayna said she would hang out with me. I don't expect any of these things to actually happen, though, because I know they won't.
And I think I have a place for my Ten Millionth Minute. It might not be cool to invite too many people to his place, though, so if you feel that you deserve to come, let me know. The list will be limited. (Not that anybody would be tearing down walls to come anyway. I mean, I'm not THAT special). I can't wait to turn 10,000,000 minutes old. It sure beats turning 19 years old four and a half days before.
Itinerary for tomorrow: 1. Wake up and shower 2. Hike with my parents (optional) 3. Work on my halloween costume. 4. Go film the jazz show. 5. Start making blueprints for my second part of the costume. 6. Fall asleep. Then Sunday I might be going to a Hookah Bar with Kamy, assuming she is still up for that. She told me that she had other plans on Sunday, but if those fell through she would go with me. :-p And, no. I'm not addicted to Hookah, and I actually didn't really enjoy it too much, but it's just a social thing to do.
In conclusion,
I have a plethora of new friends,
I'm psyched about this costume party coming up,
I'm filming a show,
And I feel terrible about making Shayna's computer crash.
:-(
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| Super Hookah! |
[Oct. 23rd, 2009|02:50 am] |
I smoked hookah today for the first time at bfhp.
It made my lungs sad.
:-(
Went to school, had an awesome time, Mehr came home with us, cleaned up a bit, had a fluffernutter (<333), took an EPIC FOUR HOUR NAP, then my dad broke out some of his dehydrated food for dinner so that we can see how it tastes in a post apocalyptic world. It tasted like REAL FOOD. We had Beef Stew, Hamburgers, Mexican Rice (with beans and chicken), Mashed Potatoes, and I had Beef Stroganoff (sp?). It was HELLA YUMMY. And after an epic water battle, we left to Big Fish Huge Pond, where we could SMOKE 'DAT HOOKAH.
We went to see Chris perform at Open Mic night. He's pretty great at guitar, and this other dude (named Bear or something) also played, and he sounded awesome as well. It was just so laid back... the mixed-fruit flavored tobacco smoke pouring out of your mouth as you hear acoustic covers of various bands (mainly Beatles). Jeff, Mehr, and Me were watching them perform. Josh showed up a bit later.
My brand new friend, Kamy (from my astronomy class), was there as well. Apparently "Hookah" is the magic word to get her to come hang out with you. :-p She seems super nice, and she also seems like she likes hanging out with me. I hung out with her on Wednesday to help her with homework. She ended up winning a bet about a certain formula to use in astronomy (that I knew I was wrong about anyway) so I got to buy her subway. I ended up not helping her with her homework, but we had a pretty cool time. :-)
She went with us to fastbreaks after bfhp as well. My sister rode with her, Josh and Mehrdad rode with me. We talked about so much... from the LOLocaust to the Mafia to munchies and pot. (Ha... it seems that all Josh talks about is girls, munchies, and pot. :-p) And when we got to fastbreaks, we were able to get a table really quick, and Jeremy showed up.
It was really awesome. Everyone there is just so chill with eachother... it's a great atmosphere. Not everybody can play pool very well, not everybody smokes, not everybody likes the same music, but everybody just chills there. And tonight there wasn't too much RAHHH music playing like there normally is... it was all just chill jazz-type music (perfect for a pool hall at midnight).
Kamy left about two hours after we got there. We chilled for about another hour or so and left. Jeremy took his mom's car home and I drove Mehrdad and Josh home. I love the conversation with Mehrdad, and I love the conversation with Josh. Both of them seem just like really great people. We didn't need the radio on the drive home because conversation was, like, filling my car. I have to say, my car was a pretty chillmobile.
Josh asked me why I left Seminole on the ride home. And me and Llama filled him in. And it seemed weird... most of the time when I tell people why I transferred to SCC, it seems like they lose some respect for me. But it's weird... it seemed like Josh GAINED respect for me after I told him. That's just weird. And when he was getting out of the car, he told me "You're going to go far-- you'll be able to see all the titties you ever want to see." It made me and my sister lawl the rest of the ride home.
I really like these Gazzies.
These people are the best peeps ever.
You guys need to start hanging out with them.
:-)
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| Carpe Diem. |
[Oct. 19th, 2009|10:37 pm] |
I wish you told me about JT...
I'm superduper happy.
I've heard amazing things about him.
:-D
Photoshoot last Saturday. I would be alright with it if I knew I had to drive to Titusville. I would also feel awesome about it if we did other things besides talk about music videos and photoshoots... oh well. I got two pairs of shoes, five outfits, two jackets, and some jewelry (I don't really accessorize) out of the deal. I guess I can't complain too much. ...i just want to jam, though...
My studio has been set-up again. My much needed adapter came in the mail today and I was about to start recording, but then I remembered that my mics are bad. So, if you need to think of a birthday gift, why not just give me some mics, wires, or a mixer? O:-)
I was invited to a party this weekend. A halloween party type of thing. So I finally get an excuse to make a costume. :-D I've been waiting for that forever... ;-) Too bad I have a show to film then. :-(
I'm filming a Jazz show on Saturday. This time, I get to control the camera, plus we all get to edit our own demos. :-D I can't wait for that. My group's demo is going good for the car show, but I think it would be better if it was just me or just him editing it. Both of our ideas splicing aren't good. I can't wait to have my own demo.
When my contact told me about JT,
I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders.
I wish you would have told me sooner.
:-p
I hate being a pitiful existence.
I hate being lonely.
Why should I rely on someone else to make me feel happy?
Life, I'm gripping you by the nutsack and I'm living you like there's no tomorrow.
>:-)
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[Oct. 15th, 2009|03:19 am] |
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Well, I WAS looking forward to tonight,
Anna invited me to Halloween Horror Nights with her.
Now I don't know what's happening.
I hope I get to hang out with her;
she's a pretty awesome person, and I really don't get to hang out with her enough.
So me thinks that this Halloween will be the lamest Halloween ever. Just my prediction. I have nothing to do, and nobody really especially wants to hang out with me that day, or they are busy. Meh. I hate that it's my birthday. People think it's awesome, but it really isn't. :-\ Mehh.
I still haven't scheduled my ASVAB. I don't know if it's something you schedule or something you just do. I don't know if the recruiting office is open on Friday. I WILL be calling THIS WEEK, though. I plan on knowing exactly which branch I'll be joining before my birthday. Who knows? Maybe I'll officially enlist by the time November hits. Afterall, I know for a fact that I want to leave Florida behind. >:-)
I've been hankerin' for a Fluffernutter lately.
Anybody want to have one with me?
:-D
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[Oct. 13th, 2009|01:25 am] |
You will never believe this, guys...
but...
OBAMA WON THE HEISMAN!
(yes, that is a link that will take you directly to the article).
The Raleigh Canard is an amazing publication.
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[Oct. 12th, 2009|02:12 am] |
"Don't Kid Yourself" by Blu is an amazing song.
And it might be my anthem for the night.
I've been writing more songs lately. Once with happy, upbeat chord progressions and melody. But the meaning behind them isn't really that upbeat... In fact, if I were to type the lyrics in my LJ (which I'm not, because I'm not going to let them get slandered by assholes), then you would think the song is completely depressing. But they aren't. I don't know.
I'm calling the recruiting office tomorrow and scheduling my ASVAB. I can't wait to leave. I really don't want to come back. I really hope I never have to come back to Florida... I guess that means signing up the longest I can in the military. I could retire after 20 years in my 30s and teach or something. ... I don't want to teach. I'd be part of a union that I'm not too fond of. Meh. Either way, I'm getting out of here in a few months, and I never have to deal with any of your bullshit again. >:-)
And you do a lot of talk online.
Too bad that's all you are.
I have a lot of loose ends that need to be tied up before I leave for basic training, though. I tried to close one of those chapters tonight, but she seemed uncooperative and uncomfortable. :-\ Meh. I just need to make a list of everything I need to do before I leave. I wish people would cooperate with me on this, though. Because it's something I need to do before I go. Even if I didn't select "honor," I would still have to complete these chapters.
< nohomo >
Me and Mehr have been hanging out recently. Every time he comes over, me and him seem to just have these neverending conversations that just don't stop. And even when I drive him home, the whole time we don't stop talking. It just seems that me and him have a hella lot in common. He even plays video games with me and tries to include me! He's pretty tight if you ask me. Good find, and an even greater catch, Llama. :-p
< /nohomo >
I need a studio. I have the money to drop for some studio components, and I probably even have the money for a pretty decent studio. I just need a computer that is decent for a studio, a (slightly better) mixer, some (decent) wires, and some (decent) mics. Someone should see how much that would cost, because I'm sure I can establish a better studio than what I currently have for under $500.
Just a final thought...
Is it a sign that as soon as I don't have anybody to hang out with...
... that I get completely loaded?
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[Oct. 9th, 2009|04:29 pm] |
I completely agree with you.
Some people ARE complete douchebags by nature.
Once again, I can think of one perfect example right off the top of my head.
Anyway, I love Fastbreaks. The atmosphere there is so chill and awesome. I'm really surprised more people don't go there on Thursday nights. It's the most fun you can have for free. :-D Plus the people there are, like, the most awesome thing ever.
I'm going to the planetarium tonight. Tonight they are talking about the history of Halloween and what it has to do with the stars. It sounds HELLA cool. It's free for Seminole State students as well. It's, like, two bucks for anybody that doesn't have an SSCF College ID. Anybody want to go with me?
Plus Molly Hatchet is playing tonight for free in downtown Sanford. I've never really listened to them, but a free concert is always awesome. :-D Anybody else going to that as well?
And I just realized that there is so much stuff to do for free around here.
... if only I knew this before I was completely loaded...
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|08:46 pm] |
I finally got to talk to an Army recruiter today. And I took my practice ASVAB test today. This is a test that will determine what kind of jobs I would qualify for in the military AND if I even qualify to enlist. Apparently, most of the scores on the practice ASVAB are around 30 to 40. You need to make at least a 31 on the real ASVAB in order to qualify.
... I made an 82.
I don't really know what it means yet. I guess I'll know in a bit. The next step for me is to take the actual ASVAB, then go back to the three branches I'm interested in to see which jobs are available for me. I don't even know what I want to do in or after the military... but this is going to be the time of my life. :-D
I'm getting away, guys.
:-D
(Looks like a win-win situation for everybody).
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| Ahh! |
[Oct. 5th, 2009|03:11 am] |
I need to stop thinking about that.
:-\
I just gotta remind myself:
It's in the past.
And it will never happen again.
... I just tend to think about it at night.
Then I can't sleep.
:-(
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|02:02 pm] |
If I were to sign up for the Navy today, it would be a year before I get my first assignment. A whole year. If I were to join the Marines today, they wouldn't let me because they are full and I have to wait until November or so to join. But then I wouldn't leave until about May. I might be able to leave right after this term if I join the Army, which is probably what I'm going to end up trying to do. I just need to leave here as soon as possible.
The little that I have is decreasing each day. Certain people that I still have are starting not to hang out with me as much, and they aren't even talking to me very much anymore. I know that me and her won't last too much longer... not as long as she has all of these friends that like to mess with me. Why am I such a target for them anyway? Ugh.
The only thing I've been doing lately is going to school and playing Halo. I have been sending my good morning texts less frequently and I'm going to ultimately stop. Nobody ever really responds to them anymore, and I get the impression that everyone gets kind of annoyed at them. Nobody really responds to my texts either, other than one of my "best friends" messing with me last night. Ugh.
It's just weird to me that I'm going to be leaving with literally nobody. Not even those few people who I thought would always be there. Absolutely nobody. Everybody that I still talk to are annoyed by me, and everybody who hopped on the bandwagon and started hating me before just hope I become MIA. And they are the ones reading this as well.
But, hey. I gotta look at the brighter side. I'm going to have great pride in myself, I'm going to be serving my country, I'm going to be exploring the world, meeting new people, and I'll be doing something that me and a certain ex friend always talked about doing. Also, me and Mehrdad have been hanging out a lot more lately, and he is one of the coolest cats I've ever met. :-D
I know I will not be missed by anybody other than my family.
But I know that I'm doing something bigger than any of you will ever do in your life.
>:-)
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|07:55 pm] |
It's official. I've made my decision. I've known it all along, though. But I finally just, like, yeah. I'm joining the military. And there's no question about it. I don't quite know which branch I'm doing yet, but I'm going to join the military. No New York, no record deal. I'll be leaving as soon as possible just to get away from here.
So screw all of you Floridians.
You all have been nothing but shit to me.
So I'm catching the next pimpmobile out of here.
>:-)
Oh, and I got something in the mail today. Chrysa (that Greek chick) sent me two things: a letter that she wrote me and a craft she made me. It was really awesome of her to do that, and it makes me feel that there are actually places in this world that have people that give half a shit about me. Unfortunately, that place isn't Florida.
Good day, by the way. I got this thing in the mail from Chrysa, I bathed the dogs, took them to get their nails clipped with my family, then went to the dog park, went to Taco Bell with my sister, finally gave my parents five hundred dollars, played Halo, and went to ASL. On my way home I told my mom that I already made up my mind a long time ago, and she told me that I need to just do it. Pretty great day. :-) (And it's weird to me that I didn't really hang out with anyone besides my sister. Normally when I have a "great day," it's when I've chilled with someone).
Like I said, Floridians.
Screw you,
because I'm outta here.
>:-)
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|09:36 am] |
As of RIGHT NOW,
I am 9,947,048.7 minutes old.
My ten millionth minute will be Thursday morning, November 5th at 3:09am.
I still have nowhere to celebrate it.
:-(
Anybody wanna host it,
or know of a place where I can celebrate it?
O:-)
I'm also thinking about having a small shindig on my birthday for anybody who's interested.
Meaning I don't expect too many people to be interested.
If you want, you should tell me.
It's alright if you don't want to,
I have a bunch of people telling me they can't do anything that day anyway.
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| After a long hiatus- |
[Sep. 28th, 2009|08:18 pm] |
I got bored yesterday,
so I bought an Xbox 360 Elite and Halo 3.
Gamertag: Master Cheezer.
I'm back after a year-long hiatus, Xbox Live.
And I'm retraining my skills to pwn bigger and badder than before.
So watch out.
PS: Do you still have my brother's Halo 2?
You know who you are,
and just post an anonymous comment if you gave it back to me or whatever.
No one has to know.
Thanks. <3
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|08:54 am] |
Ahh! Guys. Impulse (I know the name is kind of lame, but bare with me) has a benefactor in California that is completely loaded. I don't know too many details about him, but I do know that he is giving Impulse a record deal in January of 2010. Also, he is funding a music video that will be filmed in November and be completed in post before Christmas. He's also supplying all sorts of high-end clothes and an actual company to give us a photoshoot in October. Looks to me like Impulse might end up being a one hit wonder or something, which I think would be awesome.
Anyway, this thing is not a certainty. It would still be more likely that I go to the military or go to New York City, but this information just gave me more to think about. This "Third Option" would involve me staying in Florida, which I really don't want to do. However, if it goes as well as I think it will in my head (which it probably won't), then you will hear Impulse on the radio in a year or so. What should I call this option... fame? (Though I know it won't get that big).
So, here's my hierarchy as of right now:
1. Honor
2. Change
3. Fame
No matter which one happens,
we all know that "Destiny" will take place. :-p
</corny>
I used to have these awesome dreams, but for the past two weeks or so, my dreams have been weird and I've been waking up in a bad mood. Like, not angry, but just depressed for my life. I would stop sleeping if I wasn't so tired lately. :-(
Meh,
just excuse this third option for now.
And I'm sorry I'm posting so many "Honor or Change" postings,
but this is a big decision of my life.
<3
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[Sep. 26th, 2009|05:15 pm] |
I wish I was as strong as I used to be.
I wish I was as nice as I used to be.
I wish I was as accepted I used to be.
I wish I was who I used to be.
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[Sep. 26th, 2009|08:02 am] |
My mom stayed home yesterday so that me and my parents can go visit a recruiter from each branch of the military. My parents wanted to come with me to make sure I don't sign anything. I was a little nervous going to talk to recruiters, but when I finally got to the offices it seemed so chill. They were just playing 360 and keepin' it real.
Air Force, Navy, and Army were closed. I have no interest in the Coast Guard, so that just left the Marines office. The only reason why I didn't want to join the Marines is because I don't think I'm badass enough for the Marines, but now I have a different outlook on it. I might not be as badass or hard as other people, but the Marines will shape me into who I need to be to succeed. I think that I have shifted my preference from the Army to the Marines. :-p
After telling a couple of people about this decision yesterday, they said "No! The Marines are the ones that don't come home!" But what people fail to understand is this: If I was afraid of dying or becoming scarred, why would I even be considering joining the Military? To tell you guys the truth, as of right now, I'm more afraid of giving blood than getting shot. And I can't even tell you why. It's funny how that works, right?
I was surprised what they were saying at the recruitment office. They actually said that there are wayy too many people in the Military. The Marines, Navy, and Air Force aren't accepting any people right now, and the Army is only accepting about 20,000 more. The economy is bad and people are joining the military because of it. The marine that was talking to us actually said that they are "raising the standards" to join. They said that they are not accepting anyone with a GED, not accepting anybody that's addicted to drugs, not accepting anybody that has had trouble with the law, and not accepting anybody that's married and/or has children. It's crazy to me that people can't even get a job as a soldier in a bad economy!
As for the "Honor or Change?" decision I posted in the previous entry; I still haven't made up my mind about that. But my brother might only be living in New York City for a few months before returning home. He isn't even sure if he's going to be living there for a month. He's just going there with no plan hoping to start his life over in the city. Also, the marine that was talking to us actually said that there is one chance to sign up; in November. So it's not a "Go do one thing then come back and do the other" type of deal. It's a "you need to make a choice and fast" type of thing.
That being said, what do YOU guys feel I should do? Go for honor and make a name for myself, or go for changing my life and starting it new? Please express your opinions in the form of a comment. :-p
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[Sep. 24th, 2009|07:20 am] |
Hmm. This is bigger than the choice I had to make at the end of Grand Theft Auto: IV, when you have to choose to either stick with your morals and gain revenge on Dimitri or make a deal with Dimitri and get a hella lot of money. This isn't really that epic, but I guess it can be in a way.
I can do two major things right now, both of which will change my life forever. I can either join the military and gain personal honor and honor from people AND get tons of benefits for me and my family, OR I can move to Manhatten with my brother, pay rent, attend the community college down the street from him, and start my life over. I've always wanted to go to New York City and join the military... but I don't know which to choose. Oh, if only I can see the parallel universes now...
But, yeah. These are both pretty big changes. What do you guys think I should do? Should I go for honor or change? What do you guys think, go explore the world or live in downtown Manhatten?
Either way,
I'm getting out of this stupid city that's never done a single good thing for me.
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[Sep. 23rd, 2009|02:29 pm] |
Well, guys, you can say whatever you want,
but Barack Obama bought me a sub from subway.
Thanks, dude!
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[Sep. 22nd, 2009|02:21 am] |
I hate my sleeping schedule, guys. I sleep so much now because nobody really talks to me or really wants to chill with me. I come home from school and take a nap, wake up around 1:30am or so, then I fall asleep again for school the next day. It's just a cycle. I hate this cycle. Ugh.
Yesterday (Monday) my first class was canceled. That wouldn't have been bad if I didn't have four hours to kill after that. I spent the first two with Katie and Christa, but Katie went to class and Christa went home to eat. I kind of got the impression that they didn't want to hang out with me that much today. I also get the impression that Christa won't be hanging out with me again for a long while. I mean, it's been a long while since we chilled, but we probably aren't going to get to hang out outside of school. :-\
I ended up hanging out at the Gazebo for a while. The Gazebo is always so fun... I "sold my soul" for a chocolate milkshake today in the form of quarters. I wrote "Andrew's Soul" on a piece of paper, ripped it up into six pieces, and sold each piece for a quarter. I kept a piece since I already had a quarter. Even though now I'm souless, it was worth it to have that chocolate Nesquik milkshake. :-D
Film class was fun. We reviewed the footage we shot at the carshow on Saturday. It was pretty sweet, and my dolly shots were EPIC. I think that our group covered the most footage; we got the most interviews, and even got a "full story" of the dyno. AND we got the inside of the facility, the trophies, the award ceremony (some of our interviewees won some awards), some good cars, some kooky cars, and even pwnt with some artsyfartsy camera angles. It was great. :-D
I stayed after class about an hour to get a live tweet of SCC's name change. I was the last student in class, and I ended up watching the press conference in my momma's office. I tweeted as soon as they mentioned their new name (@king_cheezer) and I ended up tweeting before they even mentioned their new name on their twitter (@SeminoleState). If you couldn't tell by their new twitter name, their name is now Seminole State College of Florida. (... I hate that name. I liked East Florida State College better).
I recorded "Bulletproof" today on youtube. It's not very well done... they lyrics are really just thrown together. I need to update it a lot. But it's about Sam-a-Lam. She's the toughest broad I know, and she's 'friggin badass. :-D I loves that I has her in muh lyfes. :-)
My mom finally agreed to go with me to the recruiting office on Friday. Of course, we can't just go to the Army or Marine recruiting office, so we're driving all over creation to a recruiting office for all five branches... even though I know I'm not going to be joining the Air Force, Navy, or Coast Guard. :-p But I can't wait to go to basic training. I'm doing that as soon as possible.
It's becoming more and more of a reality how much of a bad move that was on your part. Not bad, like, it being strategically bad, but bad being diplomatically bad. Like, you didn't just do it, you did it in one of the worst ways possible. And it's becoming more and more of a reality every single night how much I hated that. :-\ (I'm trying not to be specific here. I wish I could say more, because it's eating away at my hospitality right now).
Aww. It really doesn't take a lot to make me smile when I'm having a bad day. Anthony Livanos just commented on "Bulletproof" saying it was a good song and he listened to it a lot. :-) I really like compliments, and I don't get enough of them. Except from Sam. She seems to be the only one that compliments me. Mehh. Oh wellz.
I really don't know what the tone of this entry is,
or what it was supposed to be,
but I'm blahh right now,
and psyched about the military.
:-)
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|10:43 am] |
My life is going amazingly right now. A certain thing I've been thinking about for years is becoming a reality. I love it. I really can't wait for it to start. I just have to wait for this term to be over, then it's going to start. :-D Ugh. For the sake of my mother's sanity, I have to "just talk about it" for now and "throw ideas around." But I can't wait.
I also wrote another song today. Like usual, the verses are eh. But the chorus is great. :-D I'm going to put it on youtube. It's about one of the strongest and most awesome people I know. :-) I wonder what she'll say when she hears it. I hope it's a positive response.
I went to the SCC (or SSCF or whatever it's called now) Car Show yesterday. I didn't go because I like cars or anything, but I went because I was filming the car show. This show will air on SGTV in a few weeks. :-) I'm proud of some of the shots I got... and some of them took some major balls to get. Standing on top of moving vehicles moving about 15-20 mph with a thousand dollar camera. It was more fun than a lot of stuff, even if I'm the only white guy in my crew and I ended up getting burnt to a crisp in the parking lot. :-p
So I'm not going to church right now. It isn't upsetting me too bad, because if the situation discussed in the first paragraph happens then I won't go to church for a while anyway. Not C@TR at least (which I'm totally stoked about!).
I've been talking to this chick, Chrysa, via webcam. She lives in Greece. She's been teaching me Greek and stuff. Ugh. She makes me want to visit Greece. It seems like a beautiful place that is just filled with all sorts of AWESOMENESS. Maybe I'll go there when the situation in the first paragraph occurs? Who knows?
I've also been chilling with Katie, Christa, Sam, and Jeremy more. Such amazing people. Annalisa has been talking to me more as well... and actually not getting annoyed. :-) I love having such positive and amazing people surrounding me at all times. What's not to like when you have that?
So, yeah.
:-D
Life is great.
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| It's about time! |
[Sep. 19th, 2009|01:22 am] |
Oh my gosh, guys.
I'm actually super duper excited about this! :-D
Except I don't know which of the five to choose...
Anybody want to help me out? <3
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[Sep. 15th, 2009|05:51 pm] |
I'm so sick of you. I have no idea why you have to take a bad situation and make it ten times worse on me. My great grandma died. I lost my church. And I lost the love of my life after finding out she just doesn't love me anymore. I have no idea why you want to draw this out, dude. Even when I stop responding, you post more and more comments on that entry and I know you're going to do the same thing on this one. You troll my youtube videos, you disgusting scum. You are definitely going completely out of your way to make me feel like complete shit.
I'm not even on your friend's list, and you (out of fear) banned me from commenting on your livejournal for whatever reason. You sure are making a point to go to my livejournal page and comment, though. I guess it isn't enough that you've made the past three months of my life a living hell. I guess it isn't enough that you've taken everything from beneath me and watched me crumble to the ground. You've injected so much of your bullshit drama into my life that I've lost my faith, lost everyone I talk to, and even lost my self-concern. I completely hate myself, dude. I hate my life, I feel absolutely pathetic, and I feel lonelier than anything you've ever experienced.
And I don't know why you need to mass a four person army against me. I'm nothing. I mean, if you're as "big and bad" as you say you are, then why would you even need to call for three other people to back you up, even after I stopped responding to you? This whole thing just seems, well, immature.
I know I'm not the most mature person out there. The difference between you and me is I can admit it, though. I like chocolate milk, playing Sorry, visiting my mommy in her office every day, spending time with my family, playing hand games, making parodies of songs, and pretending to high five every time the word "Duty" is mentioned. I'm not secretive about it, and I'm not quick on the trigger to call others immature, dude. But at least I'm not a sore loser.
I remember very well that night of my graduation party when we all played Uno. Anybody sitting at that table can recall the biggest hissy fit you've ever thrown. I can recall countless unfinished games of Risk between you, me, and Patty. You would scream and throw a little bitch fit every time one of us would even think about intruding into your territory. I remember you even woke my parents up one night because you were throwing the biggest little temper tantrum ever. It's a major character flaw, dude. You need to win. You must win everything. And if you don't get your way, then you just completely lose it. That's probably what's happening right now.
I can gladly say I'm immature. And I can also gladly say that I don't use women. I have heard you call a certain 15-year-old-girl a slut, annoying, and immature. I had no idea why you called her that when you were her best friend in person. Then I find out you would force her to send certain pictures to your cell phone. I heard rumors of you, from one of your "minions," that you would go on Stickam and just jack off on cam to girls and make them take their clothes off (and it makes sense since you asked me one time "Hey, want to see free boobiez?" and went to stickam). And every single girl I know you've used, abused, and made them feel like shit in order for them to do stuff with you. You are truly disgusting. (And if anybody wants more specific examples, feel free to contact me. I'll gladly tell you everything I know).
I have no idea why you want to draw this out, dude. But after this entry I'm done. I can gladly live my life knowing that I'm not a disgusting creep parasite of a person. I can gladly say that I am not a manipulative asshole that has to put others down to get to the top. And I can also say that I don't have a short cock (which made me chuckle like crazy when I found out).
You absolutely disgust me, Aaron Bryant.
(OH NOEZ I SED HIZ NAIME SUM1 CAWL TEH CAWPZZZ)
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|06:57 pm] |
Guess what?
It's been, like, an hour,
and she already changed her status on Myspace and deleted "FLYFIX" from her general section.
She also deleted our pics together.
lawlawlawlawl.
If you don't feel the same way about me that I feel about you,
then WHY THE HELL were you kissing me, hugging me, cuddling with me, and telling you how much you love me when we were hanging out ON FRIDAY?
Hmm?
Telling me one moment that you felt like it was going to be over soon,
then telling me that we can pull through this situation another night,
then being an amazing girlfriend one night,
then ignoring me the next day,
then breaking up with me the next day?
Don't you DARE give me those bullshit reasons you're so good at doing.
Tell me,
You got bored of me, or you found another person.
I know that it's one of those.
Or maybe you just want to jump from guy to guy.
I don't know.
But just tell me the REAL reason.
RIP Grandma Gail.
I'm so glad I got to see you.
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|05:32 pm] |
"I just don't feel the same way about you that I did a few months ago."
:'(
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|03:38 am] |
Well, guys, I've been an emotional roller coaster. I feel like I'm at the lowest of my low. I can't sleep, I don't have a welcoming church, my love is tearing me up from the inside-out, and I have absolutely no motivation to do anything except stay in my room. No reason to leave. No reason to go to school. No reason to get up. If Patty does not want to see me, hang out with me, or talk to me, then why in the world would I want to leave my room?
It's not only doing a number on me, but I've been fighting with my dad about this whole situation. This Patty thing is damaging my relationship with my father. I know he's just looking out for me, but I've lashed away from him twice in the past week (as opposed to the once every two or so months in the past). I guess we're not seeing eye-to-eye on this whole situation.
My Dad wants me to just break up with Patty, along with the rest of my family. Afterall, she said that we're going to be over soon anyway. I guess they don't know that I love this girl, but I just wish she felt the same way. I guess I can't force her to love me, right?
"It's not an 'oh my god' bad thing. It's just that things change. It's not a bad thing at all, things are just changing." And I knew that we wouldn't see eachother as much when school started, and I knew her talking to Valery more would cause her to stray away from me, but I had no idea that this girl who loves me would ever say that us breaking up is not a bad thing. (And, no, you disgusting parasite. This is not an excuse for you to invite her over to your house and take advantage of her).
She can say that we're just changing or whatever, but I can feel deep within my heart that she is just bored of me. And there's also a slight chance that she has someone else in mind, but I'm not going to say that quite yet. I mean, I can see why she's bored... this relationship has been pretty boring itself. I mean, there's a long list of things that make it boring:
We've never fought to start off. We've never been really angry at eachother. My parents love her and her parents approve of me. We tell eachother all the time what we mean to eachother. We bake a lot together and it always ends up in a mess. We do dishes together and we always get wet. We record youtube vids together and we are just adorable. Everybody I know approves of me and her together. I mean, she's the beset thing I've ever held in my arms, and probably the best thing I'll ever hold. <3
There was close to no drama in this relationship. None. In fact, I remember when we went to McDonalds all the time, got ice cream, then cuddled in a ditch watching the stars fly overhead. I remember when it was cold, we'd hold eachother close. I remember when we threw a brick into an antpile (and the brick is probably still there), and when we broke a pole in half and started "sword fighting." I remember when we walked around the carwash and saw the "mahine" sign. I remember when FlyFix was created. I remember when our first kiss was, I remember sitting on the jungle gym (or is it jim?) with glasses with those "spring eyes," I remember when she didn't want to lay down in the brush because she thought there were snakes in it, I remember when we played in a big pile of leaves the day my grandpa died, I remember when I stepped in a section of sidewalk that was separated and my foot sank about a twelve inches underground (that made me chuckle thinking about it), I remember when we climbed a tree and talked to a guy walking his dog, I remember when the cops discovered us and we didn't even get in trouble, I remember when she wanted me to teach her how to play guitar, I remember when she would sit next to me on the piano bench as I serenaded her, I remember dancing in the rain with her, I remember making brownies with her and becoming a huge mess of chocolate... the list can go on forever.
My point is that this has been, literally, a perfect relationship. We have been there for eachother through thick and thin. Without the drama, I guess the perfect relationship becomes boring. It's hard for me to believe that she is breaking up with me just because a lack of drama, though...
Maybe I treated her too well? Maybe I grew too attached to her? Maybe I'm not the amazing guy I was at the beginning of our relationship? It could be a lot of things. Bottom line: She is thinking this is going to be over soon, and I don't even know why. But I refuse to believe that bogus excuse she gave me.
Patricia Michelle Barrett,
I love you.
I really do.
This is an amazing relationship.
And I don't even know if you know.
I love you more than anything and everything,
and I will be ballsed if you think you can get rid of me that easily.
<3
:-p
-AXH-
ps: Thanks, Sam, Christa, Katie, and Annalisa. You guys are great. <3 |
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[Sep. 13th, 2009|12:25 am] |
I downloaded the "Nintendo Channel" on Julia a few months ago. A feature in this channel is you can download DS demos straight from your Wii to your DS. I just found my DS recently, plus my brother is home tonight, so I decided it would be cool to try out some of these demos. And these are the demos that were selected. :-p
Megaman:
This game was different than the usual side-scrolling Megaman games. In this demo it was just a battle scenerio, which was pretty complicated. It was super fun once you got the hang of it, though. AREA DRAIN!
Cooking Trainer: Mac and Cheese Demo
I was expecting a super duper fun mini game from this demo. The only thing this game included was detailed text-based instructions on how to cook Mac and Cheese (in the full version, a voice reads them out loud to you). I am not cooking mac and cheese, so I found this demo very pointless and not helpful. (And if I wouldn't spend fifty dollars on a game to tell me how to cook macaroni and cheese anyway).
Rhythm Heaven:
This game has hella catchy rhythms that you need to perform certain tasks on the bottom screen in order to complete. The games are fun, kind of comical, and deliver the simple but intuitive gameplay that Nintendo is known for. :-p
Meh. They were fun.
:-p
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 11th, 2009|01:30 pm] |
So, yeah.
It really hurt me when you said that.
:-\
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 10th, 2009|07:18 pm] |
I guess you don't want to hang out.
UGH.
I want to vent,
but I got nobody to vent to.
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|04:28 pm] |
Happy Birthday, dude.
You're a man now.
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 7th, 2009|05:56 pm] |
I have to say,
with the little bit of information I found out today,
I feel like a bigger man than a lot of people.
:-D
tee-hee...
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|02:10 am] |
I realize that the only people that care enough to read my livejournal
are people that hate me.
I guess I have to thank you guys for caring.
-AXH- |
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| 952 |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|09:14 pm] |
This is my 952nd entry.
And I want to do something special for my 1000th entry.
Would anybody be interested in buying a book if I made one using my livejournal entries?
Eh?
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2009|01:23 pm] |
I love seeing my Grandma,
so it was a nice surprise to see her in the driveway when I got home from school.
:-)
My great grandma doesn't seem to have much time.
Her birthday is on the twelfth.
I think I want to go see her.
:-p
Oh, Patty.
When do I get to meet your Grandma? :-)
I actually want to! :-D
iLoveyou
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|09:01 pm] |
Well, this will be an interesting turn of events.
-AXH- |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|09:41 am] |
We have a drummer,
who has two bassist friends.
:-D
This is all just falling into place.
I loves it.
:-)
Jam sessions are Saturdays from Ten to Noon.
Maybe you guys can sit in on one if you want?
:-p
Oh, and I saw you at school yesterday.
I'm super glad that you're back in school.
I'm proud of you.
jsuk.
-AXH- |
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| Livanos Studio |
[Aug. 30th, 2009|08:54 am] |
Yeah, I recorded yesterday.
In an actual studio.
Complete with a green room, recording room, and digital room.
It even had a window and those water dispensers!
I'm really impressed with Livanos Studio.
And I'm even more impressed with their prices.
40 bucks an hour!
(Sidenote: I got a discount on Berman's Random Gong studios. It was $350/song. So $40/hour isn't bad at all.)
Plus there was another group in there before me, and they got an entire song done in two hours. How cool is that? :-D
I would definitely recommend anybody to record there.
You'll get wayyy more than your moneys worth.
-AXH- |
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|01:05 am] |
Happy Sevvies,
PattyFly.
The Fly to my Fix.
<333
-AXH- |
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[Aug. 27th, 2009|05:42 pm] |
PATTY FLY
WHEN CAN WE SEE EACHOTHER AGAIN?
It's the only part I'm hating about this whole school thing.
:'(
-AXH- |
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| ...realization? |
[Aug. 27th, 2009|12:07 am] |
We're treating each other like we're exes?
Like we were in an amazing relationship,
but then we had a really bad break up?
-AXH- |
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[Aug. 26th, 2009|09:20 pm] |
Great day.
:-)
I chilled with cool people that I haven't chilled with in a while,
and hung out with some of the most awesome people I've ever met for hours.
Can it be true that this is how my term will be?
With people I actually know,
with people I actually enjoy being around,
every single day?
:-)
I can't wait.
:-D
pattytomorrowisourday.
<3
-AXH- |
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| Good day! |
[Aug. 25th, 2009|09:32 pm] |
I totally hung out with Katie and Christa today at SCC.
I was helping them find their classrooms.
It was fun. :-)
I saw SAM-A-LAM there, which makes it ten times more BA.
Tape finally came over to get his game while I was taking a nap.
Good riddance;
Now I don't have to hear him complain and throw hissy fits about it anymore.
At least he had the cahones to come over here and let my sister walk his stuff out to him.
I talked to Patty on the phone for half an hour or so.
I love her.
I love her voice.
It soothes me.
:-D
I just took the College Jeopardy test online.
It was to try out to be a contestant on the show.
... I totally got spanked, by the way.
:'(
I'll be in bed early tonight.
I can't wait to try to sleep, actually.
I love sleeping. :-)
I don't know how I should phrase it, but I'm either
A. Starting college or
B. Continuing college tomorrow.
I mean, I have 17 college credits,
but I am also just out of high school.
So I guess I'm starting/continuing college tomorrow,
and I can't wait.
:-)
iLoveyouPatty
letsdosomethingtomorrow.
:-D
-AXH- |
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